Blessed.

This weekend has been so hard. For one, I am missing my family so much. I have not been able to focus lately on anything because I miss them so much.

Then, yesterday, stress again set in. My mom and my aunt came to see me, and after visiting a store in downtown Waco, I went to start my car. However, it didn't start, and wouldn't after several attempts. We knew that the problem was not the battery and was something bigger than that, but it still appeared that it would have to stay there overnight.

Immediately, I started crying. I was so frustrated and even more upset with the fact that my parents were going to have to pay for something that they didn't plan on paying for. There were several people who were wanting to do stuff with me that day, and trying to explain that I couldn't just frustrated me even more.

Later, I got home and slowly began to calm down. Ty came over and asked if I was any better and I said no. We decided that just to try, he, Bubba and I would go and try to jump it off just to try and get it home. That didn't work, and again, I was stressed out.

I began telling Ty about my day with my mom and what I had bought at the antique store. As I got it out, I stopped and just stared at the word that I had spelled out right in front of me:

I want to have a bucket type thing of scrabble letters on my kitchen table, and I bought this to set in front of it.

I hadn't realized at the time when i was picking out my letters the impact it would have on me later that day. I am so blessed by so many things, and although the day did stress me out, God has blessed me beyond measure and is continuing to work in my life.

"Blessed are the poor in spirit,
   for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.  

 Blessed are those who mourn,
   for they will be comforted.  

 Blessed are the meek,
   for they will inherit the earth.  

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
   for they will be filled.  

 Blessed are the merciful,
   for they will be shown mercy.  

Blessed are the pure in heart,
   for they will see God.  

Blessed are the peacemakers,
   for they will be called children of God.  

Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
   for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

  Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you."

In Matthew 5, it mentions this passage, and I quickly found comfort in it. No matter what has happened in the day, I am so blessed by so much and have to take joy and refuge in that. Not in the stress, the sadness, the anger, or the hurt. But rather, the love, hope, joy and blessings that my God provides.