Today, I returned to work and for the first time in almost a month, I saw most of my little babies. It was one of the greatest things to get to see them all again after such a long time. It's crazy how attached I have gotten to these kids and their families and how much they truly mean to me.
All week my mind has been going crazy thinking about school, my job, apartment stuff, my family and friends and all things that could possibly distract me.
However, today, my mind was brought to Mary, the mother of Jesus.
You see, today I was rocking one of our babies to sleep. Slowly, I could see her begin to really start sleeping. She is one of the most beautiful little girls I have ever seen with dark brown hair and big blue eyes. I love when she sleeps because without a doubt, she always dreams, and you can see her mouth curl into a sweet smile.
I started thinking of Mary and how she must have felt when she held Jesus for the first time. There is no doubt in my mind that she was filled with great joy, love, hope and sadness. She knew she would have to one day let him go. She knew that it would be the hardest thing she would have to do.
As I was holding this sweet gift from God, I started to have tears come to my eyes. She is not my daughter, but I could not even imagine giving her up. There is nothing that could convince me to let that little girl go.
But Mary did just that. And I truly want to be like Mary.
You see, she was so filled with the love of Christ that serving Him was her primary goal. She did not allow the Earthly emotions she was feeling to get in the way of her love and undevoted attention to the call the Lord had set out for her.
I want to be so filled with the love of Christ and so devoted to His calling that I am untouched by the responses the world has. I hope that I have the courage to live in His will for me no matter the cost and no matter the situation.
Holding that sweet angel today was one of the most rewarding blessings. But, knowing the God has a greater plan for her made me realize even more how I want to be a Mary. I want to live knowing that even though there might be pain, the Lord has something greater in store.
Yeah, that's it. I want to be like Mary.
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